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I am distracted by my lack of feeling significant.  I just don’t understand where this is coming from.  I have this weird sense the people around me are not pleased with me.  I haven’t done anything wrong (that I know of), but I just feel like I am not as welcomed or as loved as others.  It’s almost like I am ‘old news’ or ‘not cool enough’…I don’t know.  I feel like I am not making sense.  This is so petty, but it’s bothering me!  Just thought I would write it out…to see if it would help…

You know when you are talking to someone and the other person keeps looking away, but they are trying to stay focused on you at the same time?  That’s how I feel.  I feel like people are just bored with me and have no interest in really having a meaningful conversation or relationship or whatever…I just feel like I am an ‘eye roll’ type of person or a ‘fake smile’ person.  You know, I come walking towards you and you do either of those two things in response to my presence…yea. 

I just have this sense that people don’t really care to hear my thoughts or really want know what’s going on.  They just want to give me some two cent crap advice and push me aside so they can enjoy the company of someone more pleasing. 

I’m feeling ignored, unwanted, lame, insecure, disregarded…insignificant. *cue the eye roll and deep sigh…*  

Anyway, just a short post.  Trying to process some feelings out…

-S-

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